This Is Me

I live in a world that is not my own that I succumb to in many ways. I live by a code that leaves me to find joy in the small things in life. Not take advantage of anything. Love and learn from everyone I meet in my journey. And especially to learn what it means to be selfless in more ways I thought possible. I am a Army wife. It is what I do. I have a love hate relationship with what I do. But do I regret it? No way.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

"Baby" State of Mind

John graduated K9 school end of September and was finally on a plane coming home on the first.
FINALLY.
I picked him up from the airport Saturday night kind of nervous.
When he left I didn't look pregnant. The only obvious way he could be reminded I was even pregnant was by my lack of appetite and my lethargic demeanor.
How would he react to how much has changed these last three months? I knew he wouldn't react "badly" but I've just been so self conscious lately that I couldn't help but wonder.
He finally came out of the terminal and gave me a big hug, my belly in the way, and goes, "Aw! You are really pregnant. It looks like a cone!"
Sigh.....I'll take it. :)
We went out for sushi and then once home John had a good long play time with Hurley to catch up on lost father/son time. I don't think Hurley has any idea what he's in for now that John's finished K9 school, poor pup.

John's first day back to the 108th was a nerve wracking one because we didn't know what to expect. Where we staying here at Bragg? So many have been getting orders to move....Is he staying in the 108th or maybe move to the 42nd where he can actually be a K9 MP?? There was a chance he might not...so we had no idea what to expect.
By end of day, Monday, we got word John would be moving, literally across the street, to the 42nd K9 detachment, which means for now, we are staying here at Ft. Bragg.
Mixed emotions on this, considering he's been stationed here 5 years and never moved, but considering our circumstances, it'll do for sure.
He immediately started out processing and by end of week was officially "out" of the 108th MP CO.
John had been a member of this company since he joined the Army five years ago, so it was a bittersweet week for both of us. We both have lots of friends that are still in the 108th that I hope we keep in touch with, but it's also exciting for this new chapter to begin.

For Columbus Day weekend, John and I headed up to Raleigh/Cary/Durham with "Mission: Baby Registry" on the agenda. I managed to find a hotel that not only had both a Target and Babies R Us within a 1 mile radius, but also a Noodles &Company, which I never knew was there!
The closest Noodles I had researched I thought was in Charlotte, but since we found this one, I think that Cary is my new fave place!
Friday night we hit up Cheesecake Factory and gorged on Steak Diane, Crab Fonduta, and of course cheesecake to get us geared up for the next day.

D-Day...AKA, baby registry day, we started off at Target and scanned away until the gun battery died.
I went into this weekend with a planned list of what we "needed" and what we "might need" depending on multiple "what ifs" that have yet to be determined.
I was so glad John was involved. It made things a lot easier, even if he was scanning things not on my list...
He surprisingly has opinions on the most random things, you just never know what they are unless you ask, so I learned.
It was neat to see what categories things fell into for him-- the "I don't really care, pick what you want" to the polar opposite where he had a whole slew of opinions.
Who woulda known this man is picky about her bath towel colors?!
After Target (and Noodles & Co!!) we hit up Babies R Us.
I was already getting tired and cranky, but we went in to do our thing. We got the registry set up and went scanning away here and there. By the time we made it back to the stroller/car seat/pack 'n play area I was seriously delirious.
At one point I was so distraught at not seeing a single set of those items I liked, that I ended up sitting on the floor in the middle of the isle while John tried strollers out....I eventually moved into the stroller bay to sit and get out of people's way, but I sincerely didn't care anymore. She could sleep in a box for all I cared at that point!
I never realized how daunting baby registries are.
I'm not sure when the "this is fun!" feeling transitioned into the "please get me out of here" mode, but it definitely came and I was SO over it.
We drove back home to Fayetteville that night feeling a sense of accomplishment for sure. Out of everything on my lists of lists, we got 95% scanned somewhere!
So thankful for online editing, cause it definitely happened during this last week!

Pops is pretty proud of himself
and piece of her furniture....
John had Columbus Day off, so while I was at work he drove to Fuquay-Varina to pick up the bedroom set for little girl we purchased.
We set it up this weekend and I LOVE it.
It works so well in her room and now with it in there I can go crazy with all the other details I've been pushing to the bottom of "to do" list not wanting to get too excited about just yet.
I'm going to personalize the furniture some, and we started out by going to go get some cute new knobs for the dresser to go with "her" rooms theme. Cause we all know babies really have an opinion about that.......

All these small but important pieces coming together gets me so excited. It makes all the back aches, getting up in the night every five minutes to pee, and my gut becoming a punching bag so worth it.

I just can't wait to see how it all turns out, may the fun begin!!